Five years ago on Mother’s Day, my husband and I were enjoying a romantic weekend away at a spa in the Virginia countryside. I had been feeling kind of off for a few days, so I’d brought along a pregnancy test, figuring that if it was negative, at least I’d be relaxed and have lots of other fun stuff to do to take my mind off it (we were planning to go to a wine tasting that day), and if it was positive, I could make some Hollywood-esque announcement to my husband on the morning of Mother’s Day. As it turned out, when those two pink lines appeared, I just started crying hysterically, waking my husband, who had to spend the next few minutes trying to figure out what was wrong. After I recovered from the initial shock, the rest of that day passed as if it was a dream. I still remember it all very vividly, just like the day I found out I’d been accepted to my first-choice college, the day I interviewed for my first “real” job, and the day I realized I would spend the rest of my life with my now-husband. Each of those days in my life represented a clear turning point; even at the time, I understood that from that day on, my life would never be the same.
Although I knew everything was about to change, five years ago I could not imagine what motherhood would mean for me. Being a mother is the most challenging, exhausting, rewarding, and meaningful thing I have ever done. It has made me doubt myself, but also helped me grow into a stronger person. Having kids has helped me appreciate my own mother in ways I had not anticipated, and continues to shape my relationship with her. My children have also brought me wonderful friends – other mothers who are my support and my inspiration. Most of all, becoming a mother has brought two beautiful souls into my life. They make me laugh, they give me hope, and they teach me valuable lessons about myself and the world. I told my family I did not want anything for Mother’s Day; since becoming a mother, I have already received more than I could have ever asked for. Happy Mother’s Day, All!